Dying to Be Me

If you haven't heard about the author of this new book (due out in early 2012) called "Dying to Be Me", it's an amazing story of and by a delightful gal, Anita Moorjani. Anita had end-stage Hodgkin's Lymphoma. She was in the hospital, and in a coma. Her organs were shutting down and her doctors told her family she had, at most, 36 hours to live.

During this time, Anita experienced "going beyond the veil", what many call a "Near Death Experience." Anita's story is a little different than other NDEs though, and as powerful as those other stories are (and they are!), hers is unique. Through this experience she learned so much in such a seemingly short time, and she's been retelling the story ever since. In essence, she had to "die" to discover who she really was. Then she "came back" to live her life that way.

Here, in an interview with Lilou Mace posted to Youtube, is Anita's story in her own words.



Imagine this: Here is a gal who fully recovered - in a very short time - from a disease that had wracked her entire body, and she recovered with no assistance from the medical profession, even though they insisted on continuing to treat her, because, after all, the cancer cells had to be there - they thought - they just couldn't find them! Not only that, but she had this amazing experience in another dimension. Then she remembered enough of that experience to come back and tell the rest of us about it. On top of all that, she is extremely articulate about what she learned, and offers incredibly profound conclusions about all of it. And as if that weren't enough, she is living the very life that she expounds, day by day, moment by moment. If there were a better example of what's possible for human beings, I'd be hard pressed to know who it is!

From another posted interview Anita talks about the concept of unconditional love:

NDERF: Can you tell me, how does one become unconditionally loving in a world that is not always loving?

First of all, remember that I feel that the universe is only a reflection of me. So the unconditional love is not extended out to the world (or universe), it is unconditional love that I extend inwardly, towards myself! Each day, I learn to love myself unconditionally.

Also, let me explain that there is a difference between “being loving” and “being love”.

Being loving means giving love to another whether you have any for yourself or not. It means giving what you yourself may or may not even have to give. This type of giving of love can eventually drain you, because we don't always have a limitless supply. And then we look to the other to replenish our pool of love, and if it is not forthcoming, we stop being loving ourselves, because we are exhausted.

Being love, on the other hand, means loving myself uncondi-tionally so that it overflows, and anyone and everyone around me just becomes an automatic recipient of my love. The more I love myself, the more it flows out to others. It almost feels like being a vessel for love to flow through. When I am being love, I don't need people to behave a certain way in order for them to be a recipient of my love. They are automatically getting my love as a result of me loving myself. So to stop being love, to me, means to stop loving myself. Hence, I will not stop being love on account of another.

NDERF: So how would you suggest someone elevate their own loving energy?

I feel it’s my self-dialogue that either elevates or diminishes the energy I radiate outwards. When my inner dialogue turned against me, over time, it depleted my energy, and caused a downward spiral in my external circumstances. I was always really, really positive on the outside, effervescent, loving, etc. etc. and still my world was crumbling around me, and I was getting depleted, and sicker and sicker.

Sometimes, when we see someone who is really positive and effervescent and kind, yet their lives are crumbling around them we may think “see, this being positive thing doesn’t work”. But see, here’s the thing. WE DON’T KNOW that person’s own inner dialogue. We don¹t know what they are telling themselves, inside their own heads, day in and day out.

Remember, I am not advocating “thinking positive” in a Pollyanna-ish sort of way. “Thinking positive” can be tiring, and to some people it can mean “suppressing” the negative stuff that happens. And it ends up being more draining.

I am talking about my own mental dialogue to myself. What am I telling myself, day in and day out inside my head. I feel it's so very important not to have judgment and fear in my own mental dialogues to myself. When our own inner dialogue is telling us we are safe, unconditionally loved, accepted, we than radiate this energy outwards and change our external world accordingly.
I also think it is very important to see perfection in the moment. The present moment is very powerful. Each moment holds promise, and each moment can be a turning point for the rest of your life.

I am often misunderstood when I say that each moment is perfect. And that everything is perfect. People are afraid of seeing perfection in a situation that is not of their liking, thinking that seeing perfection means not changing it. To me, seeing perfection does not mean keeping the situation static. It means seeing perfection in exactly where you are in your journey right now, no matter where that may be. Seeing perfection in the journey. Seeing perfection in the becoming. Seeing perfection in the value of the mistakes as you are becoming. Seeing perfection in the moment, wherever in the journey that moment might be. That is seeing perfection.

For more information about Anita and her story, visit her website Anita Moorjani dot com.